Sanity vs. Insanity

my random thoughts … realization between extremes … sometimes being non-sense make a perfect sense .. question vs. answers.. do they really matter? anything to write, to think about.. just want clarification and some catharsis here.

Ayon Kay Bob Ong

Filed under: affection, recovery — urladytaimeese at 6:25 am on Thursday, October 23, 2008

 1. “Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..”

2. “Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.”

3. “Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.”

4. “Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.”

5. “Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”

6. “Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.”

7. “Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.”

8. “Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.”

9. “Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang.”

10. “Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una.”

11. “Hindi porke’t madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa.”

12. “Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka.”

13. “Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority.”

14. “Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya.”

15. “Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo.”

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. “Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo.  Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!”

19. “Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo.”

20. “Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.”

21. “Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal…nakakatakot mahulog… at kapag nahulog ka, it’s either by accident or talagang tanga ka..”

Colors of Masquerade

Filed under: affection, love — urladytaimeese at 10:08 pm on Saturday, October 4, 2008  Tagged

Life had been painted with deception and lies,

Facing the crown with such pretentious eyes.

Veiled myself with colors of masquerade

Trying to hide my naked weaknesses.

 

Instance froze left untouched, I shut my world,

I have portrayed the life of the “Snow queen”

Mastering the lines with such articulacy.

Making believe I painted the “Colors of Masquerade”.

 

Phases of time endowed wisdom constrained,

Finally the pictures of the past, conveyed single image of finality.

I felt the heart that once had been broken…

Unsure of its bearing, but surely it had learned.

 

Expediting the world, the least a soul can expect

Our paths had crossed amidst the yonder blue.

I tried to shove the urge of wanting, needing you

But damn the heart that beats so fast, damn this soul for finding home.

 

Forgive the bodies that lust, the urge to reunite.

I chant the ode of Venus, you claimed the wrath of Mars.

I drank the sweet taste of insanity, but cried the bitter sweet reality.

You have unveiled me, exposed my infirmity.

 

Again I have graced the stage of a lover’s bed.

Finding its height, culmination of your desire,

But my soul again was shattered even brutishly.

Where were the colors of masquerade that once protected me?

 

Act is over, it’ll never make believe.

My soul was browbeaten, subdued to finally end.

I close my eyes and to take my bow.

But my heart beats forever, till I see you again.

Animal Rights Uncompromised: There’s No Such Thing as a ‘Responsible Breeder’

Filed under: Pets — urladytaimeese at 7:30 am on Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Most people know to avoid puppy mills and "backyard" breeders. But many kind individuals fall prey to the picket-fence appeal of so-called "responsible" breeders and fail to recognize that no matter how kindly a breeder treats his or her animals, as long as dogs and cats are dying in animal shelters and pounds because of a lack of homes, no breeding can be considered "responsible. "
All breeders fuel the companion animal overpopulation crisis, and every time someone purchases a puppy or a kitten instead of adopting from an animal shelter, homeless animals lose their chance of finding a home—and will be euthanized. Many breeders don’t require every puppy or kitten to be spayed or neutered prior to purchase, so the animals they sell can soon have litters of their own, creating even more animals to fill homes that could have gone to shelter animals—or who will end up in animal shelters or so-called "no-kill" animal warehouses themselves. Simply put, for every puppy or kitten who is deliberately produced by any breeder, a shelter animal dies. Producing animals for sale is a greedy and callous business in a world where there is a critical and chronic shortage of good homes for dogs, cats, and other animals, and the only "responsible breeders" are ones who, upon learning about their contribution to the overpopulation crisis, spay or neuter their animals, and get out of the business altogether.

Breeding Trouble

Producing more animals—either to make money or to obtain a certain "look" or characteristic— is also harmful to the animals who are produced by breeding. Dogs and cats don’t care whether their physical appearance conforms to a judge’s standards, yet they are the ones who suffer the consequences of humans’ manipulation. Inbreeding causes painful and life-threatening genetic defects in "purebred" dogs and cats, including crippling hip dysplasia, blindness, deafness, heart defects, skin problems, and epilepsy. Distorting animals for specific physical features also causes severe health problems. The short, pushed-up noses of bulldogs and pugs, for example, can make exercise and even normal breathing difficult for these animals. Dachshunds’ long spinal columns often cause back problems, including disk disease.

Adoption: The Only Compassionate Option

There is no excuse for breeding or for supporting breeders. If you love animals and are ready to care for a cat or a dog for the rest of the animal’s life, please adopt from your local animal shelter, where there are dogs and cats galore—tails wagging and hearts filled with hope, looking out through the cage bars, just waiting to find someone to love. Shelters receive new animals every day, so if you don’t find the perfect companion to match your lifestyle on your first visit, keep checking back. When you find your new best friend, you’ll be glad that you chose to save a life—and made a new best friend as well.
If you know anyone who is considering purchasing an animal instead of adopting from a shelter, please forward this article t them, and please consider making a donation today to support PETA’s vital work to save lives.
- Advocate of Peta & PAWS -

Love letter

Filed under: love — urladytaimeese at 10:18 pm on Friday, February 9, 2007

It has been over 9 months now since I first saw you. You were just new then, just another “happy” face among the group. I liked you and thought that we could be friends. I never thought we’d go this far.  9 months doesn’t seem to be too long and with the kind of lifestyles that we have and all the personal concerns that we bear time passes like flight of thoughts.  Yes, we’ve been together only for a 2 1/2 months and kept holding on for another 6 ½ months despite the distance.  Everything is so fast paced and that is so because we have chosen to have it that way in spite of all the challenges that we face.  It is only quite ironic though that after all, we are getting stronger, indeed, we may have lots in common, but obviously our differences clash.  That somehow teaches us to forgive and care beyond the conflicts.  There is still much to learn, I know but thank God we’re extremely fast learners.  Now, we have learned to believe and hold on to each other for years.  That is something that others can only dream of.

Honestly I miss those intimate moments, the laughter, outdoor breakfasts, coffee and yosi perk ups, seaside walks, travels, afternoon in Recto, leisure in Cavite, sensible conversation, Sundays in the church, those honest moments when we couldn’t keep ourselves from crying, and all the things we do. But what I miss most is simply that indescribable feeling of being together.  The hugs, the kisses, and your wonderful smile that never failed to brighten up my day.

I found joy, healing, fulfillment and new life with you.  Few more months and we’ll be together for good.  Storms may come and go but I always believe that God will see us through.  We may not have all the comforts in life but we can still choose to be happy and satisfied.

For better or for worse, in richer or in poorer, in sickness or in health, till life beyond.

Simply I am glad for finding new reasons of living with the person who loved me unselfishly… thanks hon..

  " Yo te amo y  es usted es mi vida"

Thank God for the pain for it made me stronger, thank you for the times i have cried so hard for now I appreciate the times I smile and laugh till my heart’s content.  And thank Him for the broken heart,  mending may never be easy but being healed is wonderful.  Now I am completely over the past and loving again. And that love that is in my heart is strong enough to build another dreams with much hope, to stay in a commitment that promises a lifetime.

Penny for my thoughts…

I can’t help it, I would love to share with you the content of the letter I recently received from my speacial someone… and the letter made me shed a couple of tears, i was touched… after reading the last line.. I pause for a minute or two…

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Nonsense Entry

Filed under: Uncategorized — urladytaimeese at 7:12 pm on Thursday, November 23, 2006

I was reading one of my friend’s testimonials to me. Thus it is simple but it made me feel good. I just had a sudden rush of thoughts that sometimes, friends knew us more than our families do.  Must I say it that way or could be the other way around? We want our friends to know us the way we want to be known and that our families know us better inside out?

I have so many questions in my head. A lot of issues to deal with as of the moment and this entry might appear to you senseless… Yet somehow I wish people would read things between the lines……… 

For the Birthday Girl

Filed under: friends — urladytaimeese at 2:29 pm on Saturday, November 4, 2006

Looking a few years back I can still remember the 3 or 4 year old girl in a red dress with a blue colar held by her dad.  She wore a short hair and a chubby cheekbones.  At the primary section, she was seated beside me said her name is "SARAH". That was the start of a good friendship, at Pasig church 22 years ago.

We joined church campings with our families and no can can really separate us during those childhood years.  But we lost touch for several years  since i went to a dormitorian school frm highschool to college.  It was only now that  we reunite.  Glad to say nothing changed to what we have started. Sarah, is still a sweet lass as ever who have grown up with much maturity and elegance. She’s very much active in the church and enjoys being in service.

It was her birthday yesterday glad somewhat to be there. And the rest of our friends are there too. It just feels good being with friends whom you know are real ones.

Ey Sary, may you have more and more birthdays to come. Love you girl and glad to be around again.

So Blessed with him

Filed under: Uncategorized — urladytaimeese at 10:45 am on Wednesday, May 31, 2006

It seems to take forever for me to be able to update this blog.  As I remember, entries here are all about frustrations, pains, failures and a lot of not so good things about me. Though I am imparting it indirectly. I never thought things would come to places as early as now am very glad it did.

I started writing again, but no longer about my pains, but how blessed I am to be happy and to be blessed with a person whom I share the same spirit. It is completely true that if God took away something from you it only means He is making a bigger room for the best present.

" You are God’s gift to me, and the epitome of beauty, you will always be my queen"… who the hell will never fall in love with this line?  Dare to tell me?  Thank God for "him"

Sana Ngayong Pasko

Filed under: recovery — urladytaimeese at 5:33 pm on Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Ilang beses na nga bang nangulila sa araw ng Pasko?

Ilang beses na nga rin bang pinangarap na sana’y kapiling ka…

Lang ng nais ay tila malayo sa katotohanang…

Minsan sa Pasko’y muling makakapiling ka.

Kay rami na ng gabing lumipas  na nangarap na sana’y kayakap ka

Umaasang sa pagmulat ng mata’y magigisnan ka.

Di na alintana ang luha ng pag-asang

Sa muling pagsabpit ng Pasko ika’y kasama na….

Sana ngayong Pasko ako ay maala-ala mo.

Sana ngayon Pasko ako ang pintig ng puso mo…

Sana ngayong Pasko ngalan ko ang sasabitin mo…

Sana ngayong Pasko…

Love and Betrayal

Filed under: Uncategorized — urladytaimeese at 5:45 am on Saturday, October 22, 2005

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I miss Love

Filed under: Uncategorized — urladytaimeese at 12:53 am on Tuesday, October 4, 2005

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